No matter what our circumstances are, God always has his beautiful extraordinary ways in which he could work in and through us just to reveal his glory through our lives. What I have learned these few months of being on hiatus, is that no matter how much you try to protect your fire it will eventually die out if you're doing it without God's help.
The love we have for Christ should be so hidden in our hearts so that the enemy won't steal it away from us because once its stolen, you're lured. Due to the busy schedule I had last semester, my time for God was put into compromise. Even my very own faith. Yes. I had struggles. Tormenting ones. Did some stupid things I've never done before. But God... is higher than everything else. However, God is just so faithful... because no matter how much we try to be independent and enjoy our freedom independently, God still sees us as his very own. Independence is dangerous - as quoted from The Shack. I have been there, done that, did it my own way. Things happened, and then before I knew it, everything was out of control. God struck me deep down in my heart one day,
"You don't have to take control of things because it's my job."
What a soft, sweet, rebuke.
Sometimes, we try to delve into other things because we know God's always there and because we know He won't ever leave us nor forsake us that's why we keep on hurting him. And by thinking of this right now, I just realized what a fool I have been these days. I shouldn't abuse His grace. Same goes for everyone of us. God is gentle... but who says we should take advantage of that?
Afterall, He's still the God cuts off every branch that bears no fruit. I have learned too, that I should always keep my eyes fixed on Him. I have been swayed, looked at people, got disappointed of how things turned... then it just hit me, I wasn't looking at God, I wasn't fixing my eyes on Him anymore. Sometimes, things like this happen to Christians. Most of the time, it happens all the time.
We tend to judge others, condemn them just because, we talk bad things about them... and then what? What happens next? The enemy rejoices because the relationship has been destroyed? That's the importance of why we should always look up to God. Indeed, He is the author and the finisher of our faith.
We need to put our trust in God. Same goes for me. However, I know I'll be more than okay. God is always God. No matter how hard trials are, God is still to be praised. I am a sinner, but He saved me. I am a sinner, that's why He came. He came to cure the sin in me. Same goes for everyone.
