I created this song last summer, i think? And then I named it "Captivated" because I felt so captivated by the love of Christ that night. It was around 2:00am, I think? I finished at what? 3:30am? I was actually lying down on my bed, meditating about His goodness about His love and everything and then I jumped out of my bed (like, literally) and then I looked for a pen and a paper. I started writing out the lyrics of this song and then I started doing the accompaniment. I was inspired by the Holy Spirit again, to create such song like this. I praise the Lord because He's just so amazing. His love is so deep, unfathomable, incomparable, amazing. Just purely amazing. Each time I think about His love, I would fall in love with Him over and over again. His love just compels me to sing, to keep on singing, to keep on creating songs for Him. His love is the only reason why I keep on singing for Him. He told me one time during an altar call, I was so filled with His presence and He sweetly whispered in my ear:

"My child, I delight in your voice. Keep on singing for me. It makes me happy."

When someone hears that from a Savior, one would have no second thoughts about it! It makes Him happy, so I do it for Him because if it makes Him happy, it makes me the happiest person in the world. The Joy of my master is my strength. That exceeding joy.

If there's something that I would never give up it will be my voice and my heart. I don't ever want to stop singing because it's the one thing that I can offer to Him. I don't want to stop singing because it's something that I'm living for. And by singing, I meant 'singing for Jesus'. You see, every time I sing, sparks are flying inside my heart like that one you get when you are in love. But in my case, sparks fly because of His love for me. It makes my heart rejoice. It enables me to sing even more for Him. Jesus, He's just so beautiful. My voice is not even enough. Even my life. Even my heart.

One time I was trying to meditate and it brought me to tears by pondering this thought:

What if I lost my voice, God?

I cried when I thought about it. I cried not because I will no longer have the voice. I cried because I will no longer have the voice to sing for Him who delights in my singing. But then He comforted me with this:

Even if you have no voice, I will still listen to the song that's in your heart.

I praise Him because He looks inside our hearts. I praise Him because what matters most is inside us. I just hope that this entry would encourage all the worship leaders out there, those who are singing for the Lord and to all the readers that are viewing this. I hope that you would continue to sing for His cause and that you would never stop singing for Him. As the book of Psalms says,

"Put a new song in my mouth, Lord"

I hope God would put a new song in our mouths today.

Not only in our mouths, but in our hearts as well.

Jesus,

Right now I am in awe. In awe because of your wonderful love. In awe because I am still alive--breathing. In awe because you're really amazing, and because of that, because of your love, I am drawn to your character. My heart is currently bursting with praises, thanksgiving and joy because you are always with me. Your presence overwhelms my heart, Lord, your love humbles my heart. Who in the world would love someone like me? I am nothing, but you looked at me with love. Your eyes are always filled with compassion and love and it melts my heart and it results to praise.

Lord, the reason why I keep on singing is simply because I want to you to hear my voice. I believe that every time you hear my voice, it makes you happy. Lord, I hope you continue to find delight in my voice. If one day, just what if...what if I lose my voice? Would you still hear the song in my heart, Lord? I hope that you would continue to preserve my voice, because singing for you makes me the happiest person on earth. Singing for you is what I'm living for. Because Lord, you are my life.

Without you, I have no life. Jesus, I sincerely want to say that I love you and I am drowning in your everlasting love. I am amazed because your love has no end. No one would ever love me like that just you, Jesus.

No one would ever treat me like a princess, only you. No one would make me smile the way you do. No one would ever know how to comfort me the way you do. No one knows my likes and dislikes just the way you do. No one would ever keep his promises the way you do, because Jesus you are true to your words.

You are the perfect example of a man of his own word. Jesus, you are perfect.


You complete me. You heal me. You make me glad. Lord, I want to be with you every now and then. I want you to keep on holding me. I want you to keep on listening to my heart that beats for you. You are the beat of this heart. Without your resurrection, this heart would be dead by now. Jesus, ah, I am really in awe. By just knowing some of your sides, I really admire it. Your character Jesus is priceless.

Nothing and no one has the same character as you are. Perfection. Without blemish.

Jesus, you are the perfect description of beautiful. You are just amazing. Lord, thank you for your heart. Thank you because you always love me. Thank you for everything. Thank you for allowing me to experience earth. Jesus, oh, Jesus. You are the sweetest person that I've ever known. You simply know how to sweep me off my feet.

You simply know how to make me kilig. Oh, Jesus. You are the best friend that I've ever had. I always want you by my side. I love to be with you and I just enjoy your presence, Jesus. There's no place like home -- my home is in your presence. I love you, I love you, I love you.