It was such a simple, yet meaningful quote, yet it made so much impact in and on me.

How far can I go without turning back?

I had to hit the pause button while watching "Honey and Clover" that time and re-read the quote over and over again until questions started flooding my mind.


Lately, I almost lost my grip on the rope of my faith. But thank God and praise Him because He held tight on my hand--he didn`t let go of me. I was just like Jonah, God`s servant in the Bible--I was trying to run away from my calling. I wanted to stop--be merry--but I realized life without God is not a life at all.

Christian life is not an easy life--but with God, life is beautiful. God spoke to my spirit and He made me recall all of the things that He`s done in me. He made me remember the people whom I dearly loved--those ones that were looking up to me. Then He made me feel His extravagant love--the one that never failed to motivate me to keep on going with life despite it`s trials and difficulties.

At first, I hesitated. I turned the other direction, forgetting about God and ignoring Him for quite some time. But then one day, I went back, broke down to my knees, and there--I was back to where I once were. Compassion--it was one of the ingredients why I also held on to the rope. I loved those people so I cannot hurt them by taking a wrong turn--so what I did was a U-turn. A U-turn back to Jesus.

I learned that depression would eat you up alive, but with God on my side, I managed to shoo it away. I managed to go against the current--I managed to go against those emotions--I managed to break free from those bandages--because of the resurrection power of Jesus Christ.

So now, I`m glad to be back. I`m glad to be home again. I`m glad to fall back into His arms again. Now, here I am... throwing the ball to you now.

"How far can you go without turning back?"