I created this song last summer, i think? And then I named it "Captivated" because I felt so captivated by the love of Christ that night. It was around 2:00am, I think? I finished at what? 3:30am? I was actually lying down on my bed, meditating about His goodness about His love and everything and then I jumped out of my bed (like, literally) and then I looked for a pen and a paper. I started writing out the lyrics of this song and then I started doing the accompaniment. I was inspired by the Holy Spirit again, to create such song like this. I praise the Lord because He's just so amazing. His love is so deep, unfathomable, incomparable, amazing. Just purely amazing. Each time I think about His love, I would fall in love with Him over and over again. His love just compels me to sing, to keep on singing, to keep on creating songs for Him. His love is the only reason why I keep on singing for Him. He told me one time during an altar call, I was so filled with His presence and He sweetly whispered in my ear:

"My child, I delight in your voice. Keep on singing for me. It makes me happy."

When someone hears that from a Savior, one would have no second thoughts about it! It makes Him happy, so I do it for Him because if it makes Him happy, it makes me the happiest person in the world. The Joy of my master is my strength. That exceeding joy.

If there's something that I would never give up it will be my voice and my heart. I don't ever want to stop singing because it's the one thing that I can offer to Him. I don't want to stop singing because it's something that I'm living for. And by singing, I meant 'singing for Jesus'. You see, every time I sing, sparks are flying inside my heart like that one you get when you are in love. But in my case, sparks fly because of His love for me. It makes my heart rejoice. It enables me to sing even more for Him. Jesus, He's just so beautiful. My voice is not even enough. Even my life. Even my heart.

One time I was trying to meditate and it brought me to tears by pondering this thought:

What if I lost my voice, God?

I cried when I thought about it. I cried not because I will no longer have the voice. I cried because I will no longer have the voice to sing for Him who delights in my singing. But then He comforted me with this:

Even if you have no voice, I will still listen to the song that's in your heart.

I praise Him because He looks inside our hearts. I praise Him because what matters most is inside us. I just hope that this entry would encourage all the worship leaders out there, those who are singing for the Lord and to all the readers that are viewing this. I hope that you would continue to sing for His cause and that you would never stop singing for Him. As the book of Psalms says,

"Put a new song in my mouth, Lord"

I hope God would put a new song in our mouths today.

Not only in our mouths, but in our hearts as well.