Have you ever had an experience wherein you really were so angry and frustrated toward someone or something that you would even kill it/them in your imagination for doing that wrong move to you? I did. I was really frustrated. I even killed an ant in my mind, kidding.
My classmate threw his bag at me. Not just any other ordinary bag. It was some sort of an athlete's bag--heavy, full of weight, and if you'd throw it at a puppy, it would hurt and might probably crush it.
Imagine this:
I was sitting at the floor, and I was with Che, we were talking--ALL OF THE SUDDEN... BOOM. I just realized by that moment that I saw a flying bag approaching my head and then, ouch, it hurt. It hit me on my forehead, and then it hit the ground. I could even tell you how much angry I was that time. My classmate even told me that she could've cursed the guy who threw the bag at me, purposely or not.
I stood up, and then I told him this: "Kagina ka pa ha.. (Don't do it again.)" I went back into my position, and then I bowed my head and cried and prayed. "Lord, control my anger. I don't want to burst out because many here knows that I am a Christian, and I don't want me to be the cause of stumbling block. Control me, Lord. Control me. Control me."
I don't wanna brag anything here, that: 'hey! see? i prayed!' No. It's not like that. It's just... I remembered that I am a Christian, and I should not do an act that would cause people to turn away from God. I also remembered that, in our anger, we must not sin. I'm just so happy right now, because He reminded me, that I shouldn't CURSE the person or YELL at the person. He even convicted me to pray.
I learned that, God is always sending us tests. Sometimes, we are unaware. Just like what happened earlier. He tested my self-control. And I am just so happy, that He gave me a chance to pray, rather than ranting at the person who threw that bag away.
Self-control. That's what I learned today.
Thank You, Lord. You taught me how to control my anger. You taught me self-control this day. It's so nice to know, that You gave me the chance to pray earlier, instead of doing any other unethical acts. Thank You for reminding me. Thank You, Jesus.
